Guardian of the Dead - George Yarq

But is it possible that I, the first concerned, should not attend my funeral? If it wasn't for the fear of what people would say, I wouldn't have wanted to participate. I will not bear my mother's grief and my father's brokenness. I will not tolerate the gossip of the mourners in the church hall and the scene of their passage in a successive line at the condolence, placing their hands on their chests, and on their tongues, “In exchange for your safety,” “May God have mercy on him,” “The rest is with your life,” and other cold phrases.
What has happened so far is only happening in a dream. So I said to myself even though I was in a dream.