But is it possible that I do not attend my funeral, I am the first, to attend. If it wasn't for the fear of people saying, I wouldn't want to participate. I can't stand my mother's grief and my father's break. I will not tolerate the chatter of the mourners in the church circle and the sight of their passage in a row of condolences, with their hands on the chests, and on their tongues "make up for your safety", "God bless him", "rest of your lives" and other cold phrases. What has happened so far only happens in a dream.That's how I said to myself, even though I'm in a dream.